When uni finished, I was so excited to get back into blogging. I was so sure I’d start posting 3 times a week again, interacting with everyone, smashing out the reviews and reading all the time. But then that didn’t happen…
My life got busy and I was distracted by adulting problems and video games. Which is fine, we blog for fun and are under no obligations to meet demands. But I still felt incredibly guilty about a number of different things.
Not reading review books
Being a mood reader can make it really difficult to get through review books in any sort of timely manner. Especially when you have over 200 books on your TBR pile… I wish I was exaggerating:
Of these, only 25 are review books. So few, and yet pretty much all of them have been on my TBR for at least a year because I never really want to read them. I want to reread and catch up on series, but not all of those are books I review or talk about much on the blog. They don’t produce content that I’m so far behind with.
Falling behind on posts
Despite my sudden free time (at least, more compared to I’m used to) I have no posts scheduled. There are a few reasons for this:
- I haven’t read many books and so don’t have anything to review
- I’m distracted by other things/ not in a post writing mood
- I haven’t been able to take photos for the posts because the weather hates me
Honestly, the weather is the main problem. I want to take photos for those list posts and reviews, but every time I try it becomes overcast and/or rains. WHY DO YOU HATE ME SO WEATHER?
Still there are plenty of posts I can write without necessarily needing book photos (like this one). I don’t really have any excuses beyond being slack.
Not being able to host regular giveaways
I am so grateful for all of the followers, even the silent ones, and really wish I could reward you all more often. Maybe one day I’ll be able to afford it but right now I have no funds. We’re lucky to host a giveaway once or twice a year for a prize of one book. You all deserve more opportunities to get something more than just our posts.
Failing at interactions
This is the biggest source of guilt I think. I’m such a silent lurker on all social media platforms. Twitter remains a mystery to me. I’m slowly figuring out Instagram but still suck at commenting. Tumblr has been neglected for so long because I never have time. Even when visiting blogs, I often read and enjoy so many posts but rarely leave comments or share them. Laziness definitely plays a part, as does some anxiety. I can’t use the lack of time excuse anymore.
Most of this guilt stems from my anxious nature, I think. I feel like I’m disappointing people, letting others in the community down. Logically I know that it doesn’t matter, the pressure is all in my head, you guys enjoy my posts when I’m there and might miss the posts when I’m not, but you don’t get annoyed at me for being absent. Despite the logic there are still those negative words floating around telling me that I could be doing a lot more than I am. I have similar problems and thoughts with other aspects of my anxiety, but that’s a discussion for a different time and place.